Pemergian

Debob knew

Setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan merasai kematian. Itulah hakikat sebenar kehidupan. Dan itu juga yang baru dihadapi ibu saudara saya. Selepas mengalami penyakit misteri berlanjutan hingga 4 bulan, akhirnya dia menturuti takdir ketentuan Ilahi. Tiada apa yang dapat menghalangnya dari berlaku. Ketentuan Tuhan akan tetap berlaku.

Beliau yang memang disenangi saudara-saudara lain sememangnya disukai ramai. Walau hakikat sebenar beliau hanyalah sepupu pada ibu, namun terasa lebih dekat dari itu. Wajah beliaulah yang dilihat tiap kali Raya dan pulang ke kampung. Kini Raya tidak akan lagi mempunyai wajah yang sama.

Teringat pula kali kedua terakhir menjenguk beliau, walaupun ketika itu masih cuba melawan penyakit beliau. Dapatlah juga bertegur sapa. Sedang asyik melayan Debob, si kucing kelabu dan terasa ingin mengambil gambar kucing ini. Sebaik memegang kamera hendak menekan butang tiba-tiba dia menegur ‘Jangan ambil gambar kucing mak cik, nanti dia mati’. Terkejut sebentar walaupun memang sudah kedengaran mitos sebegitu. Mungkin disebabkan saya yang buat muka terkejut, maka dilegakan kembali ‘Tak mengapalah, gurau saja’. Tanpa disangka, yang pergi dahulu adalah mak cik dan bukannya Debob.

Namun segala-galanya memang telah berlaku. Walaupun berkesempatan menziarahi beliau ketika sakit, sememangnya sedih melihat keadaan itu. Dapat juga beliau menyebut nama saya walaupun agak perlahan. Dapat mengecam melalui pergerakan mulut sahaja. Tidak mengapalah, Allah lebih menyayangi beliau. Supaya deritanya dari kesakitan dapat dihentikan. Semoga Ruh mak cik dilimpahi rahmat. Tinggal yang masih hidup mengambil iktibar dari segala yang berlaku. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un. Al-fatihah.

THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

Expecting

Notes: Both pictures are not from same place and location and two different institutions.

Nothing is bigger than what am I waiting. Final exam seems small but it is still important. Just like my interview with Maybank. That was my first time. I don’t even think what will happen during that day and only focus for that interview. So during the interview, it is surprisingly that I’m the one and only from engineering field and other were from financial and accounting. However expecting the situation could give much more advantage on me so I should be aware of my surroundings.

So this might happen on my new big day, InsyaAllah.

- There will be less Malay on that day with the fact that examination will be conducted in private secondary school.
- There will be many people much older than me.
- Since my number already passed 100, I’m guessing there will be around 200 to 500 person maybe, I couldn’t guess it though.
- There will be a lot of nerds, maybe. At least the people there will be best out of the best that ever existed.
- I might be able to see very capable person on their third language.
- I think I will be smallest people but with big ambition.

Alhamdulillah, my two other friends were included in the list. For sure now, at least at this stage we can fight together. The only thing left is for us to do the best. Gambatte Kudasai. Takbir. Allahuakbar.

THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

Dissappoinment

French football star Franck Ribery admits sleeping with underage girl as child prostitute scandal grows

The sex scandal engulfing France's international football team took a disturbing twist today as Franck Ribery admitted sleeping with an under-age prostitute.

It came as 22-year-old Karim Benzema was named as another suspect, along with Hatem Ben Arfa, the 23-year-old Marseilles striker.

They all join Sidney Govou, the 30-year-old Lyon winger, who is the fourth player allegedly involved in the crimes.

Although Ribery, a married 27-year-old star, denied knowing that the girl was under 18 when he began seeing her, he could still face charges along with his teammates.

All are suspected of having 'regular sex' with the unnamed French Moroccan after being introduced to her at the Zaman Café, a notorious nightclub on the Champs Elysee in Paris.

Ribery - widely considered to be France's best player - told examining magistrates that he 'saw the girl over a number of months in 2009'.

This contradicts earlier claims that he and his team mates were solely being interviewed as witnesses in the child sex probe.

Prostitution is legal in France, but those providing sex for money have to be at least 18.

If found guilty Ribery, a Muslim convert, faces a maximum of three years in prison and a fine of up to £40,000.

'Judge Andre Dando has yet to decide if Ribery is to be prosecuted but it remains a possibility,' said a judicial source in Paris.

'Ribery has admitted having sexual relationship with the girl over several months, but denies knowing she was underage. He could be in very serious trouble at the worst possible time in his career.
'The same goes for the other players if they are found to have been knowingly sleeping with an underage prostitute.

The unnamed woman is now 18, with the offences said to have taken place last year, said the judicial source.
Ribery is hoping to star in this summer's World Cup finals in South Africa, and is also contemplating a lucrative move from his current club side, Germany's Bayern Munich, to England, Spain or Italy.

He and the other three players were summoned to appear before Judge Dando after 20 girls were arrested in a dawn swoop on the Zaman a week ago on Monday.

It has now been shut down.

A man known as 'Abou' from a hit French reality TV show was questioned about his alleged role in acting as a 'pimp' to introduce players to the girls.
Ribery converted to Islam to marry his French Algerian wife Wahiba. The couple have two daughters.

Govou, a winger with Lyon, is single but has a five-year-old daughter with his ex-girlfriend, Pascale.

The two men will meet in the Champions League semi-final on Wednesday in Munich.

Benzema and Ben Arfa are both believed to be single.

Despite the new revelations, Sophie Bottai, Ribery's lawyer, continued to deny that her client had slept with the girl.

'This affair does not concern my client and could only, in the worst case, involve his private life alone,' she said.

Lawyers for Govou, Benzema and Arfa also deny any wrongdoing.

Jean-Pierre Escalettes, president of the French Football Federation, said: 'An investigation is under way. There is nothing else to say at the moment.'

While international players for teams like England have frequently been involved in scandals involving sex and alcohol, this is the first time that the French have been connected with widespread sleaze allegations.

France was widely criticised last year for the way they qualified for the World Cup.

Former Arsenal striker Thierry Henry admitted handling the ball which set up a goal against Ireland which secured the draw France needed to go to South Africa.

Source from: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/article-1267201/French-footballers-Fanck-Ribery-Sidney-Govou-questioned-child-prostitutes-scandal.html on April 21st 2010

A disappointment, really. Just waiting for the trial. Hope three of them are innocent.

THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

Go Through Time 2

Doraemon and his time machine.
DeLorean time machine car in Back to the Future.


Time Machine in movie from H.G. Wells book.

Well, time is important for all of us. It is heavy to discuss about it actually. But I like most of philosophy value that relate with time. Like in Malay idiom ‘Time is like gold’. However I like much for example regarding time. My ustaz has said about time. Now we feel that this is a moment where we feel the modern things such as television, radio, internet and so many more. On the other hand, Qiamat or the end of time also happened in the future. That’s mean Qiamat is in the future with advance technology. With imaginary of screen that shows our live in the world before, or it might doesn’t have a screen maybe like hologram. Everything can happen with Allah power and will.

Let say now I’m going to discuss about the mechanism to travel through time. Honestly I’m not thinking it is possible like in the movies that we have seen. But as I’ve read about it I only believe on one way time travel. Which mean only into the future. Have you heard that Einstein stated that if one can travel at the rate of light speed, he/she can go to the future. It is called time relativity. But I didn’t even know the actual meaning of that theory. But only that I understand from a picture, one astronaut bid farewell to his girlfriend with both have young faces. Next pictures show his arrival to earth after lingering sometime in the space at the speed of light. In the picture, the astronaut still has a young face but his girlfriend have become old. He feels that time was slow rather than people on earth. It means that he already travelled to the future but there are no way for him to return back to have younger girlfriend of his.

Some other theory stated that if we can maintain our body as healthy and young like now and does not ageing proportionally with time so we can assume that we travel to the future. Plus we must fall asleep like in Ashabul Kahfi which slept for 300 years before they woke up. But for sure that was a miracle that happens to them so they can feel that opportunity. It is simply as hibernation. Maybe many people can argue this theory but what matters is what do we feel and experience. If only scientist can preserve human body for you for more than 500 years, or for a millennium than you wake up in the future. So you have the chance to fell the future just like in the ‘Futurama’ cartoon. Only thing is you don’t have anyone that know you over there.

Interestingly I’ve followed up closely the series lead by Dr. Michio Kaku, who is like a leader in the science fiction universe. He became the host in ‘Sci Fi’ a Discovery Science series. So he try to make real thing of science fiction with logical knowledge of science such as making a lightsaber, high capability of space travel, and also try to make possible time travel. And I am fortunate to watch the series about time travel. So at the end of the episode, he shows that one must have a rocket or space transport that capable to bring a human which also can penetrate through a blackhole. Because he said blackhole has disturb time-space principle which make possible for human to go through time. Like if a certain blackhole being marked as A, B, C and D then if you want to travel for certain time like 700 years before so there might be a guidance on which blackhole you must penetrate. The time travel advisor may suggest you to ‘go through blackhole C 3 times, then blackhole A twice, and blackhole D once so you will reach 700 years before’. Just like that. And to return to the present just do the list backwards. But I don’t know the effectiveness of the theory. Well, it is just a theory for now.

So I think that’s it for now. As real thing that can be done for time travel as close to the reality logical science. However as far as I’m concern, huge evidence only tells that the one way time travel is possible. But Muhammad S.A.W.A, in Isra’ and Mikraj have an experience whereby he saw people in hell being punished. However as logical mind can think, how can a human being punished if the end of time not yet happen. However this is Allah power to show to Rasullullah S.A.W.A. the evidence so he can tell us about it as a warning. And this is fall to ‘Ghaib’ matters that impossible can be understood with human mind. So I couldn’t relate with the event much. Then I suppose that I should avoid discussing a ‘Ghaib’ matters again. And only try to relate with science and possibly some of Islamic statement.

THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

My Father 1

“our father has a great impact in our life, i believe so.
He is not here, but he always there.
Somehow, I just knew it.
My siblings, relatives and my cousins speak extremely good things about him, which I don't know about it before. After his dismissal,only then I know.
He (my Dad) is extremely ordinary person, but live, larger than his life.”

I’ve just gone through some old posts from my collection. I’ve read again my post entitled ‘Hari Akhir Oktober’ tells about my experience regarding a puzzle of Dragon Ball. My entry was an empty version when I wrote about it. But sometimes later my sister wrote the extension of my story, on her own point of view. Here is the entry from my sister.

However, since I was a kid at that time, I don’t have any philosophical meaning on me for that occasion. For me it was simply a scene of my life. But my sister entry give me a deep meaning of that event. Even the image came out in my mind seems that I’m smiling like a little boy, but at the back with transparent image of myself right now just bowing down in sorrow. I’m surprised the event should be meant like that. It is huge. Then, I’ve read the comments for that post and seem I found out those sentences above. And I couldn’t agree more. It is true.

Everyone will say good things about their father. Including me. Even I don’t have so many things to say about. But it is okay for 16 years, 5 months and 5 days living with my dad alive. If I told you any things about my father, it is more likely came from other person actually. Not directly from my experience. Here some stories dedicated to him.

It was told that my father who helped his in-laws in schooling. What a nice deeds from him. He also helped his niece and nephew in continuing their studies. After all, it is about education that matters. He did the right thing ensuring all relative as he can help to get better knowledge for better live. Amazingly, he still lives in moderate life. For me it might be lower than moderate life level. However we live happily without feeling any dissatisfaction. Regarding this during eid fitri my cousin (my father nephew) gave us a visit. Suddenly we opened up a story of our late father. But I couldn’t remember about it. But eventually when he about to leave, he gave some money to my mum and come to me and gave me some more. I can’t refuse but actually I’m a bit shy to receive some more ‘duit raya’ from others especially from far relatives like him. But later my mum explained that he might feel owed to our late father so give us some contribution that can’t match for what my father already did.

Pak Uda as he being called by his side of relative was very popular. A strong figure in the relative tree that even does not rich like his youngest brother and does not establishing any great property but rich with good characters. For a conflicting case, Pak Uda’s quotation and statement will be referred. It was complicated actually but I’m proud if a case was referred for statement made by my father. They regard my father statement as a solid fact and prove for any problem arises.

Actually I couldn’t write any more. I’m short of memory about it. Because I just simplified my father was a great person. And that is enough to me rather than to memorizing all events happen. However it is better to record for what significant event that happened for a fond memories to me. So that is why I write this. I think that is enough for now maybe I write some more later. I know this might be uninteresting topic that I ever wrote but for me this is what I want to write. Later, InsyaAllah during eid again I will collect many more stories of my father from my relatives so that I can adore him and follow the path of his living. In short, I think he sacrificed so much in his life until his last breath for others. Beside of love for husband, now I know the huge significant of my dad to my mother.

THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

Nihon-go No Jugyo

Assalamualaikum semua. Salam sejahtera hendaknya. Tajuk di atas tu bolehlah diterjemahkan kepada Bahasa Melayu menjadi ‘Kelas Bahasa Jepun’. Apalah nak ditulis kat sini? Cuma nak kongsi sikit-sikit pasal kelas Nihongo ni. Bukan untuk sesiapa pun. Cuma nak menaip-naip sikit dan macam biasa merekodkan apa yang aku rasa dan apa yang aku ingat supaya tak kehilangan ditelan arus masa dan zaman.

Ceritanya bermula lebih kurang begini. Semester 3 diploma, lebih kurang September 2006 bermulalah episod baru dalam hidup aku. Bermula dengan Anime yang diberikan oleh Ariel, kawan lama dulu maka aku tertarik dengan kisah Anime Jepun. Sampai terikut-ikut menyanyi lagu tema cerita tu. Lama-lama bertukar, minat ke lagu Jepun pula dan banyak siri-siri program Jepun yang ketika itu tertumpu pada Morning Musume (sorry). Siap pula masa tu, download siri-siri mempelajari bahasa Jepun. Kira macam video petunjuk untuk yang baru pertama kali menjejak ke negara matahari terbit tu. Ingat lagi ayat pertama dia ajar untuk siapa yang baru tiba di airport ialah ‘Doko desu ka’. Walaupun ayat tak betul yang digunapakai oleh mat saleh dalam video tu, tapi masih ada iras-iras untuk bertanyakan arah sesuatu tempat. Jadi mat saleh tu pun tanya satu soalan ‘Hana Zono Jinja doko desu ka’. Dia tanya temple yang popular di Jepun. Jadi, orang jepun tu pun balas ‘Massugu itte hidari’ maknanya “pergi terus, kiri”. Hurm, apalah ni. Tak menarik langsung.

Ok, masa berlalu. Yalah, dari semester 3 hingga 6, lama. Fenomena jepun bersansur-ansur hilang dan aku pun hampir lost dalam arena meminati jepun. Masih terlekat sikit-sikit. Terdengar pula degree nanti wajib ambil bahasa ketiga. Apalagi, sungguh teruja la nampaknya. Saja borak-borak dengan ketua program, tanya sesuai ambil bahasa apa? Tapi beliau terus jawab ‘Ambillah bahasa mandarin, senang sikit nak kerja nanti’. Hmmmm, terdiam jugak la. Tapi memang diam je lah. Minat hati mana orang lain tau.

Ok lagi, masuk degree. Tau-tau je kena ambil 3rd language sem 5. Bukan sekarang, masa sem 4 (1st sem bagi siapa-siapa yang masuk dari diploma). Jadi mulalah mencuba untuk merekrut rakan-rakan yang nak ambil bahasa Jepun. Tapi, hampeh. Takde langsung yang nak join (member lelaki). Jadi menggunakan talian hayat tanya pada Muiz-sama, menanyakan dia ambil nihongo ke tidak. Jadi, dia pun kata nak ambil nihongo, lantas aku pun cakap nak join. Siap offer kan diri lagi, cakap kat dia “Kalau ada aktiviti group, aku nak join group kau ye”. So, dia pun ok. Secara jujurnya, aku ni kekok sikit nak kerja dengan gurlz. Seriously speaking. Inilah antara benda pertama yang aku nekad nak buat. Biasanya ikut kawan. Tapi kali ini, dah nekad sesangat dah. Minat punya pasal, terjun je bahasa jepun. Risau pula masuk bahasa lain, tak minat, sangkut. (Sedangkan masa tu pendirian dah hampir goyah. Tak tahu macam mana kalau sorang-sorang je yang belajar). Kesannya, aku sorang je yang kat dalam rumah sewa ni, batch aku yang ambil nihongo. Majoriti ambil Deutschland a.k.a bahasa Jerman dan dua orang lagi Mandarin. Alhamdulillah, everything was fine.

Maka, masuk sem 5, hari Rabu khas kelas bahasa ketiga. Aku masuk kelas sama dengan Muiz-sama and the gang. Mereka adalah Yati-san, Shima-san dan juga Emi-san. Tanpa mereka berempat ini, aku mungkin lost in space dalam dunia bahasa Jepun. Terima kasih or Tottemo Arigato Gozaimasu korang semua. Jadi kami memulakan kelas dengan Mariam-sensei mengajar kami. Tottemo omoshirokatta desu (Tersangat Seronok). Dan mengejutkan lagi, kami sebagai pelajar kena buat projek pelajar iaitu video lakonan sebagai ganti oral test. Jeng, jeng, jeng. Bagai orang mengantuk disorongkan bantal. Aku yang memang dah lama minat directing video ni, apa lagi. Menjadi ketua kultus mengarahkan empat orang rakan aku yang jadi mangsa ni untuk melakonkan cerita yang aku tulis, aku rakam, aku direct, aku edit dan macam-macam lagilah untuk aku. Gila kuasa tak? Takpe la gila kuasa, kalau buat kerja kan. Mula-mula cuak sebab takut cerita tu mengarut sangat. Tapi yang bestnya, lepas je tayangan perdana video semua student dalam kelas tu, lepas tayangan video kami, semua audience memberi standing ovation atas video kami. (ceh, melampau la nak stand, duduk je sudah la). Memang mereka duduk je, tapi satu-satunya video yang dapat tepukan kuat adalah dari kami. Apa lagi, memang rasa terharu. Rasa nak berucap macam lepas dapat award je. Ha3.

Masuk pula sem 6 bersamaan nihongo level 2. Jumpa lagi dengan Mariam-sensei dan rasa happy. Memang la, masa level 1 dulu dapat A dengan sensei ni mesti la nak belajar lagi dengan beliau. Tapi masa ni amat segan, sebab dia komen semula video nihongo level 1 dulu. Katanya banyak video yang lama sangat, dan terlalu ‘kreatif’. Jadi beliau mengehadkan pelbagai aspek seperti had masa adalah dari 7-8 minit saja. Beliau menambah lagi sebenarnya pensyarah nak lihat ayat dan intonasi saja, tak perlu berlebih-lebih. Apa lagi, segan tak terkira la. Semua yang diperkatakan tu macam tertepek kat muka je. Tu la, gila kuasa lagi, siapa suruh? (Frust jugak sikit-sikit. Kami nak jadi kreatif saja. Tapi takpalah sensei, maafkan atas keterlanjuran kami). Jadi berlalulah masa untuk level 2 ni macam biasa. Masa untuk buat video, maka aku berikan tugasan membuat skrip kepada gurlz-gurlz ni (untuk mengelakkan kes gila kuasa berlaku lagi). Jadi Yati-sama telah membuat skrip yang berkualiti dalam skop ayat yang cukup untuk semua, unjuran masa yang dapat dicapai dan folio skrip yang amat cantik. Terima kasih untuk korang. Macam biasa, aku pegang portfolio editing video dan juga exco cameraman. Istimewa kesan khas dalam level 2 ni hanyalah untuk introduction sahaja. Ada kawan kata macam drama pula intro kami. Terima kasih lagi daun keladi. Tapi kali ni tiada tayangan perdana. Sensei nak layan feel sorang-sorang katanya. He3, gurau je.

Sem ni, sem 7 pun masuk pula. Tekalah? Sape sensei kami. Hmm, tak lain dan tak bukan, Mariam-sensei lagi. Wah, hattrick aku dapat belajar dengan Mariam-sensei ni. Ramai sebenarnya takut dengan sensei ni. Ramai yang tukar kelas lepas dapat tahu sensei ni ajar kelas ni.Ramai jadi begitu takut sebab sensei strict masa jaga test dan exam. Tapi itu yang aku suka, maka aku menjadi seorang yang belajar secara serius dan bukan main-main. Ilmu masuk pun bukan main, seronok bila rasa belajar, memang betul-betul belajar. Macam biasa, masa berlalu. Kanji pun ada belajar sekali. Masa untuk video. Kali ini Muiz-sama yang mengetuai jalan cerita. Cerita yang menarik juga, skop ayat yang susah dapat ditangani oleh beliau dan folio skrip oleh gurlz yang memang menarik. Department aku pula, dapat la letak kesan khas kat intro dan babak akhir video kami. Muiz-sama sempat pasang sikit untuk testing sebelum submission. Sensei pun dapat tengok intro tu kat kelas dan ayat yang keluar dari mulut beliau ‘Omoshiroi desu ne’ maknanya “menarik-menarik”. He3. Jadi aku pun senyum-senyum bangga dan kembang hidung. Ha3. Alhamdulillah, orang suka hasil kerja kita, apa salahnya merasa gembira.

For the conclusion, tarikh 15 April 2010 tempoh hari adalah hari terakhir aku belajar nihongo secara formal kat universiti ni. Diharapkan berjaya jugalah untuk nihongo level 3 ini. Sebenarnya minat nak belajar lagi mendalam. Terasa nak belajar secara penuh di dalam hiragana, katakana dan juga kanji. Namun requirement hanyalah pada tahap itu saja. Maknanya kalau kami nak belajar lagi kena usaha sendiri. Mana lagi nak cari belajar bahasa lain kat luar tu murah macam ni? Rezeki kamilah agaknya, dapat belajar benda yang kami minat dalam ruang lingkup pembelajaran yang sama. Tak perlu susah-susah cari di luar. Dalam masa yang sama, sedih juga tak dapat nak pelihara bahasa arab yang lagi lama dah belajar. InsyaAllah semuanya nanti dapat digenggam. Jadi duta antarabangsa dalam membawa kemajuan dan kesejahteraan umat manusia.

THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

Feel ‘Happy’

Written on 14th April 2010

Today I’m so happy. Why is that? Because we just having our test. The feeling is fine. No stress, just relaxing after finishing that test.

I’m ‘happy’ because my friends happily and proudly using T like I’ve mentioned weeks before.
I’m ‘happy’ because so many people join to use T. They said most of them even girls or boys using it.

So I'm 'happy' because they can answer all the question full without left any unanswered questions. But I'm not so happy because I couldn't satisfy my heart for what have I answered on my answer sheets.

But FYI, I’m not using it. So don’t think that I same with you.
I’m ‘happy’ because there are a lot of skills on making T.
And I’m ‘happy’ because someone happily distributes the T to others.
I’m ‘happy’ because the lecturers were less stringent on that situation.
So I’m ‘happy’ for them because they can answer it fully without any hesitation.

And I’m ‘happy’ but somewhat confuse, why they proud to use it. Telling the situation they’ve experienced happen to me, saying that they can answer it fully but on the other hand I couldn’t do that. For me it is a shame.

I’m ‘happy’ because I think why didn’t I just become like them?
Even though my answer was not fully complete like others, but I’m proud of it.
That is my own sweat and efforts. Even though I’m not doing the test at my best.
But still I’m very, very happy because I still standing on my belief.

However the feeling of reward with our own effort, is huge.
But still, if the result were bad, I’ve might feel regretted.
However, not only the result at the end does matter, but also the barakah from above is the most important.

Hope all of us will get redha from all of human being and Allah which is the most important.

(Notes difference between 'happy' and happy)

THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

Tekad Hati

Walaupun berada dalam keadaan keliru, tidak pasti, ragu-ragu dan tak meyakinkan, tapi lawatan aku ke blog dan entri ini telah membuatkan aku cuba nekad dengan keputusan. Cuba membuat keputusan bersandarkan pendapat dan pandangan orang lain. Cuba berfikiran sama dengan mereka yang lebih dewasa. Almaklum, mereka telah banyak melalui perit getir kehidupan. Dan pada mereka satu kesilapan, pengajaran pada yang lain bagi mereka yang mahu berfikir.

Cuba berfikir untuk masa depan. Walaupun masa depan itu ketentuan Tuhan, namun sebagai hamba perlulah seadanya untuk berusaha kearah yang dirancang. Bak kata orang, gagal untuk merancang bermakna merancang untuk gagal.

Tekad hati, mahu teruskan setakat mana Tuhan telah tentukan. InsyaAllah. Bantulah aku, permudahkanlah laluan ku dan realisasikanlah impian ku Ya Allah. Amin ya Rabbal ‘alamin.


THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

By Surprise

Alhamdulillah Rabbil ‘Alamin. Well, it is not a full victory yet, but just one step ahead. What is it? It is just an offer for attending an exam. What exam? I have to keep it secret. But it is somewhat a big examination for me. Biggest than anything that I can imagine. From my perspective, it is big as SPM but only it is upgraded level. It meant that, I can’t be a kid anymore. Can’t be a teenager anymore. I must become a grown man.

Well, maybe I’m overexcited. It is because I don’t expect to get this great call. There are several factors. More likely in technical area, in filling the form of course. The requirement said that we must finish our studies before September 2010, but however as honest as I can fill the form, I wrote that I will graduate in November 2010. It is 2 months late. Furthermore, in filling the table of past studies, I have some complication to do so. Because I have two schools for my secondary school. It is weird to fill those two schools in one row of the table. Plus that I must state some explanations what I’m going to do and what have I done before. With just one night to figure out about it, I think whoa, impossible I will get this call with such rush efforts.

Why is this becoming an issue? Because in the guidelines given they said that it is the one that fill the form completely that will be called for examination. And FYI, they have very strict regulation on filling the form. I become confuse in doing so but I still fill it anyway. Well of course, it is not wrong for trying. What criteria that I know as disqualification criteria? Here some of it, I copied from the guideline.

* LATE APPLICATIONS WILL NOT BE CONSIDERED, NO MATTER WHAT REASONS ARE GIVEN.

* DO NOT submit documents other than mentioned.

* Application with any blank column will be disqualified, no matter what reasons are given.

* Applicant who submits photocopy of transcript without certification by issuing authority, as well as photocopy of transcript without grading information will be disqualified.

* ONLY ONE (1) application per individual, double submission will be disqualified.

* Applicant who has already enrolled in a ######## university is not eligible to apply.

and several others basic qualification criteria such as cgpa at least 3.20, same academic background, language proficiency, study area and does not attend their university before.

With these, which mean anyone can apply and anyone who passes all basic requirement obviously will be called to the examination. So why I’m so excited? I don’t know. But later one of my friend Miss M tells me that they just call us, they doesn’t look at the cgpa yet, your theme yet, and what have you done before yet. If you qualified, they just call you for the exam. Later I’m feeling such a fool because being excited from nowhere. LOL.

However, everything is different from each person’s perspective, right? I’m honored to get this. Only thing is, I must not become satisfied. I must strive harder. This is one level higher. Not like now. Far ahead in the future. Actually, I getting nervous just thinking about this. Thinking whether I’m ready or not. It is a big decision to make. To attend it or not. Well, I still got some time to think about it. May 9th is the date.

Let say there will be thousands of people attending this exam, there might be 50 people will be called for interview, and later 10 will be selected. Can I being filtered to pass this 63 µm sieve? (Just a figure of speech). Well, I must believe; I must strive and try before giving up. Efforts from me and Tawakkal to Allah.

But, I’m badly needed some time to figure out about this.


THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

Elemen Kejuruteraan Alam Sekitar

Ini adalah salah satu subjek yang kami ambil untuk semester 7 ini. Sememangnya menarik tanpa ragu-ragu. Mengetahui permasalahan interaksi antara manusia dan manusia yang lain dan tidak dilupakan juga pada alam sekitar secara keseluruhannya. Pelbagai topik yang dipelajari sebenarnya dari pengenalan subjek ini secara umum, kualiti air, rawatan air, rawatan air kumbahan, pengurusan sisa pepejal, pencemaran udara dan akhir sekali yang baru dipelajari adalah PENCEMARAN BUNYI. Sudah tentu pensyarah kami yang unggul dengan ciri-ciri Islamik beliau membuatkan senang hati untuk menerima subjek ini secara menyeluruh.

Cuma satu masalah saja yang nak dituliskan disini, mengenai pencemaran bunyi. Permasalahan ini amat subjektif. Ini kerana penerimaan seseorang individu itu terhadap bunyi yang dihasilkan. Ada yang tidak tahan mendengar bunyi cengkerik sekalipun, ada pula yang boleh tidur lena walaupun rumah bersebelahan dengan jalan raya utama, ada pula yang merasakan lagu teramat rancak itu sebagai dodoian lagu untuk tidur dan pelbagai variasi lagi. Jadi untuk menilai sesuatu bunyi itu sebagai pencemaran sebenarnya adalah relatif antara satu sama lain. Cuma saintis sudah mengkaji dan mengukur bunyi pada kadar desibel (dB). 30 dB adalah dari perpustakaan kebiasaannya, 70 dB dari trafik yang sibuk, restoran yang bising dan pada tahap ini bunyi bising itu mungkin memberi kesan terhadap deria pendengaran. 80 dB pula boleh mendatangkan bahaya pada manusia iaitu mereka tidak boleh terdedah pada tahap ini melebihi 8 jam. Jika tidak mereka mungkin akan menghadapi kecacatan pendengaran sementara ataupun kekal mengikut tahap keterdedahan mereka itu. Jika 80 dB pun sudah merbahaya, apatah lagi untuk nilai yang lebih tinggi. Betulkan?

Jadi cuma mahu timbulkan persoalan, memandangkan pencemaran bunyi ini subjektif, jadi apakah rasanya nilaian untuk sebuah rumah yang disewa oleh jejaka-jejaka bujang yang melebihi 10 orang? Anda rasa berapakah nilai desibel yang akan direkodkan jika datangnya dari rumah bujang tersebut. Mungkin paling senyap adalah ketika pukul 7.00 pagi malah boleh mengalahkan kesenyapan perpustakaan. Dan dB tersebut itu juga mungkin boleh mencecah nilai yang tinggi mahupun ketika pukul 2.00 pagi. Apatah lagi kalau perlawanan bola sepak tetap dilaksanakan pukul 2.45 pagi, dB yang secara lumrahnya patut rendah pun mungkin tiba-tiba melantun tinggi.

Jadi atas fenomena tersebut, mungkin kesedaran dalaman adalah penting untuk cuba mengawal nilai dB ini dari membuatkan jiran-jiran yang lain naik meluat dengan rumah bujang tersebut. Walaupun mereka tidak tahu apa itu desibel, tapi mereka ada telinga, telinga pula tidak boleh dikawal. Bukan seperti mata, boleh dipejam. Bukan juga hidung, sekurang-kurangnya jika bernafas melalui mulut deria bau tak berfungsi. Telinga sentiasa terbuka 24 jam sehari. Tidak dapat dikawal melainkan memakai headphone istimewa dari makmal yang berkesan menghalang pencemaran bunyi memasuki telinga.

Jadi atas kesedaran tersebut, disini mungkin ada beberapa tips untuk merendahkan desibel yang dihasilkan untuk mengawal pencemaran bunyi tersebut dan antaranya;

1) Berborak dengan kadar suara normal tanpa perlu meninggikan suara.

2) Tidak perlu menjerit memanggil nama rakan. Pergi berhampiran dengannya dan menegur beliau dan teruskan dengan niat asal memanggil.

3) Jika terasa hendak melalak dan menyanyi sambil mendengar dari headphone, sila pastikan headphone dibuka sebelah untuk anda menilai sendiri suara anda itu sedap ataupun tidak, kuat ataupun tidak, pitching lari ataupun tidak semua atas nilaian anda.

4) Jika menonton perlawanan bola sepak secara langsung, pastikan diri anda sentiasa dikawal oleh pemikiran rasional anda. Jika pasukan anda menjaringkan gol, anda bolehlah menjerit gol secara senyap. Teknik ini boleh dipelajari secara eksklusif dari Basyir.

5) Jika menonton siaran yang kelakar, cuba-cuba ingatkan Tuhan dalam hati. Kerana sesungguhnya gelak yang besar itu akan menggelapkan hati. Secara tak langsung anda dapat mengawal pencemaran bunyi yang dihasilkan.

6) Jika berborak-borak dengan rakan anda, pastikan isu yang dibincangkan tidak sesensitif isu ‘FYP’ kerana mungkin butir-butir isi tersebut itu yang meluatkan jiran anda.

7) Tidak sangsi lagi, bunyi deruman motosikal akan memeriahkan suasana, jadi digalakkan menghidupkan kenderaan bersama-sama dan bergerak bersama-sama bagi mengelakkan deruman itu berpanjangan.

8) Jika mendengar lagu-lagu dan menonton filem melalui speaker mahupun subwoofer, dinasihati kadar kekuatan bunyi itu sekadar anda saja yang selesa mendengarnya. Jika ragu-ragu samada volume yang dipasang itu kuat ataupun tidak, anda bolehlah memanggil seseorang yang sensitif terhadap bunyi dan meminta beliau untuk menilainya. Jika kuat anda bolehlah memperlahankannya sedikit.

9) Mengajak ahli rumah beramai-ramai pada hari khamis malam jumaat untuk membaca Yasin. Nescaya tiada sesiapa yang akan memarahi bacaan Yasin itu sebagai bising melainkan jiran tersebut adalah non-muslim.

10) Sedekahkan pada jiran anda, setiap 10 rumah depan, kiri, kanan dan belakang beberapa buah headphone menutup telinga yang digunakan dimakmal ataupun dilapangan terbang itu. Nasihati mereka untuk sentiasa memakai headphone kedap bunyi tersebut jika terasa ada kebisingan melanda. Nyatakan pada mereka masalah kebisingan ini tidak dapat dibanteras kerana bunyi bising ini seperti bunyi mesin di makmal kejuruteraan mekanikal.

11) Jika ada inisiatif kejuruteraan, teknologi yang digunapakai didalam studio rakaman amat berguna. Seperti memanfaatkan bekas telur yang boleh menyerap bunyi itu dilekatkan didinding terutama sekali dinding yang bersebelahan rumah yang meluat dengan rumah anda. Dari dibuangkan begitu saja lebih baik dikitar semula untuk kebaikan bersama. Sambil itu, inisiatif menutup semua pintu, tingkap dan juga ruang terbuka yang membolehkan getaran bunyi itu disampaikan ke rumah yang lain juga merupakan jalan alternatif jika anda terasa juga mahu membuat bising seperti berlatih untuk pembentangan ‘FYP’.

Inilah antara inisiatif yang boleh digunapakai untuk mengurangkan pengeluaran pencemaran bunyi ataupun dalam nama Inggerisnya adalah ‘Mitigation’. Bukannya apa, selain dari kemudaratan kesihatan telinga anda, anda juga dapat mengurangkan risiko dari MBSA mengunjungi rumah anda kerana pencemaran bunyi tersebut. Tambahan pula risiko untuk dihalau dari rumah sewa juga akan berkurangan dengan drastik.

Buat akhirnya, renung-renugkan dan selamat beramal!



THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

The T 2

Cheating is everywhere, even in football. He3.

Okay, I’m a bit calmer now. So I want to settle the unfinished business here. I’m just writing about this, but yesterday one event happened. My lecturer gives us back the test papers. But before she did it, she calls upon someone to come before her. Let say his name is P. So she said “Did you do this on your own?”. Later P mumbling (in his Ganu accent) something of course to hide what he did in the test weeks ago. She asked again “It seems odd for your answer. You are only one answer as weird as this. Are you copied from other?”. He keep quiet for a while and later admit it “Yes, I did. So let’s assume this answer is wrong (in his strong accent of course)”. Wow, even a student can suggest the outcome. After he busted that he cheated, so he easily wanted the lecturer to assume that just a wrong answer. So the lecturer asked again “From whom you copied this?”. P answered “Sorry Cik, he is a kind man so I don’t want to name him and bla bla bla (mumbling some more in his strong accent)”. Maybe she fed up with him and does not understand what he said she just said “Enough, go back to your place. I don’t understand what you are saying even a word”. This event later was followed by a laughing from all the class members.

And at that time, I thought what is this? An event of cheating in test was celebrated with laughing and no proper punishments were done. Well, I’m not concerned with that. Because I don’t know how much P gets for his test. If I know it and it is better than me for sure I will not satisfied.


Yeah, that is the issue. I don’t go mad if I don’t know how much they get and if I’m better than them. Seems like double standard but that is the only thing can happen to me. Let say I got highest mark or at least higher than for those who are using T, I don’t think I’m angry on them. Sometime I feel pity. But otherwise happen where they got higher marks than me. But for sure that event happen when I’m not properly prepared for my test or exam.

I don’t ever have the courage to warning or admonish my friends about this. If they know I’m saying this and I believe some of them will read this they might think “Come on man, you not that pious or honest to warning us. Do you think that you’re the most kind and honest person?”. Hurm, I admit I’m not so honest that I can warning and scold the others. But what can you do if someone asked you in the hall? I have to answer a bit. And sometime I’ve forgotten I’ve accidentally asked others. This will not happen if he not started this. I’m just an ordinary human being and you might want to use this excuse also. But sometimes seeing them using T too much, it is unfair.

Well, I’m bit afraid to write about this actually. Because I have a risk to get busted or become something worst that I have written whether in the blog or just on papers even years before. Allahumma inni a’uzubika min zalik. So I hope my philosophy will remain strong and I don’t even try to cheat anymore. Even for a bit. InsyaAllah.


Even too much disappointment that I’ve to face, this post has increased my faith back. Even though I don’t see the reward yet, but why I have to see the reward first. Sincerity is the most important.

p/s: I hope no one will ask me again in the hall, so I won’t ask him/her again.


THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-

The T

T might be one of the important elements among us. One which opt to make one or to try to make one. You’re probably one of them. Or else, you might be labeled as an honest student. Lately, it is becoming frequent especially during tests or examinations (so why they need The T beside these periods of time? Baka).

Lol. It is hard to purposely make the sentences above to combine those five letters. You just figured out on your own. That is the thing that I want to discuss about now. The T.

Just days earlier, we were having tough time. With FYP dateline near to its closing date and at the same time we are having our environment test. This subject is about reading. No calculation at all. So students have to memorize all the facts. But in this case with students were busy to prepare their reports, there are no time for them to prepare for the test. Mostly I say.

For me, I’ve tried to get sometime. Only to get up from sleep at 8.30 a.m. on that day. Just ready for study on 9.30 a.m. With the fact the test will start at 12.00 noon, I can’t believe I’ve got to study about three big topics within 2 and half hours. I’ve tried however at least I tried and not giving up.

At the dying moment, I’ve seen my friend looks so relax. Doesn’t have worrying face on him. So we started a conversation “How about your study for this test?”. He replied “I don’t know. I know nothing”. I added “Well, at least you have your own ‘preparation’ right?”. He just sits quiet. Later he said “Hey, do you want it?”. Then he comes closer to me. He takes out his mobile phone show me some T that I said earlier. But, as humble as I can I manage to decline his offer. “Sorry pal, I’m not into that.” As strong as I can answer for his offer.

If you at my place, would you take that offer? Honestly, my mind at that time were mixed whether to accept it or not. But I’m still believing on my principal. For them, I’m the one getting wasted and for me I still believing on my believe.

This is the crisis that happen. Whether to be honest or to be dishonest. As a matter of fact, there is a writing format for T. I can’t believe it. I just laughing after I know about it. They will managed to make it small as smallest it can be. So the guardian during the examination wouldn’t be realized for what these students did. So there how the format for T started. If you see one, you might be surprised also.

Usually, there will be a person wanted to be honest. Sometimes they desperate and got to make one of T. But, if they bring the T that time they don’t have any problems to recall back what they have memorized earlier. The problems is when they are honest (i.e. not bring T along), only that time they hardly to recall what they studied earelier.

I’ve heard this philosophy long time ago. Not so long, just about 3, 4 years earlier. It is said “We must strive to get carry marks as high possible, cheat or using T that is your effort. Final exam is another story.” But, unfortunately, this T still can manage to penetrate exam hall. I just smiling if I caught someone using it. I don’t know whether to feel pity on him/her or to be mad on him/her.
Well, I don’t give a damn what they want to do with T. I will feel happy if someone got busted using T. But after almost 5 years, no one was caught cheating. Actually there were several occasion earlier but they are not punished as they should pay. How disappointing.

One thing that I can’t stand is, the one who frequently used this T is the one who got higher marks. Not only that, they even managed to get into dean list. Again, I Can’t Believe It.

Actually, I’ve sketched this article in Malay. It seems this is only half of it. I can’t stand to write it further. So I will stop here. Probably I’m very mad right now. So, this is it.


THE STRUGGLE TO SAVE THE GLOBAL ENVIRONMENT IS IN ONE WAY MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN THE STRUGGLE TO VANQUISH HITLER, FOR THIS TIME THE WAR IS WITH OURSELVES. WE ARE THE ENEMY, JUST AS WE HAVE ONLY OURSELVES AS ALLIES -Al Gore-