Okay, back to the point where I have waited for the date. How I'm going to start? I want to write this very quick so I don't want to waste my time doing something else. I waited for three months well of course to hear the offer for confirmation. Confirmation requires an excellent performance during the first three months and then we will be evaluated by the superior or our bosses.
Yes, that's cool. But unfortunately, even the day has come but I don't want any more of this. I've tried to be a hardworking workers, I obey every orders, I try to handle everything but no, I don't think I can do it anymore. I have lost my appetite to eat, I didn't get enough sleep, my relationship with others has fallen to the lowest level. I don't want to be sucked into this bloody company. I don't want most of my time and effort used for works.
Well, I know I am new. I've been pushed around like a ball. I can't believe this is the place for me to gain good experience. So many friends encouraged me to still stand and overcome all the obstacles, challenges and so many more things but I think these things is just not so me. I hate this. Why I entered this field at the first place? Why???
Hurm, I do want a near workplace. So I got it. Yeah, my mother was so happy so some one can accompany her to live in her owned house. Yes, this come with certain price. My salary were reduced so significant so I believe this is the sacrifice need to be made. And I believe my salary is the lowest among my graduated friends. But for me, this lower salary should allow me to learn very nice and to catch up with everything at reasonable pace.
But it was so sad. No experience engineers, no reliable partners, and demanding company owners, I have to pretend that I am very expert in this field. Bull shit!!! They demand so many things and I am willing to do but there are no supervisor in this office who can watch me closely what I have done. Now it just like I am stranded here.
I believe, enough is enough. I have sacrificed most of my time to make them richer and richer but yet, it is not satisfying. I am not satisfy with myself. I want knowledge, I do get much knowledge. But now, I feel alone. I am alone in this company. Yes, it is true. Consultancy firm; you will mostly going home late. But this is seriously different. How come I am the only one who always return home late? Well, twice already I slept in the office. Yes guys, alone.
I feel like this even the boss doesn't scold me yet. I'm not afraid with that. I just disappointed with myself because I can't deliver it really well. I can't. I really can't cause I am alone. I don't know what to write anymore. I am down, really, really down right now. So guys, if you are in very happy and good feeling, just enjoy it and Thanks Allah Taala for whatever it is. Good bye. Take care.
I can't believe on this date, the third month of my working days, the date that I have waited so long, I am writing my tender resignation letter. What a date, the much anticipated date but it turns out really awkward. Hahahaha.
"229. IF A BUILDER BUILDS A HOUSE FOR SOMEONE, AND DOES NOT CONSTRUCT IT PROPERLY, AND THE HOUSE WHICH HE BUILT FALLS IN AND KILLS IT OWNER, THEN THE BUILDER SHALL BE PUT TO DEATH" – Hammurabi's Code Of Laws –
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