Merdeka

Permainan komputer Civilization (terkini Civilization V: Brave New World) memang menarik. Semakin lama, semakin unik dan juga lebih terperinci dan menyamai dengan konsep ketamadunan manusia. Sudah tentu pembina game ini sudah mengkaji dengan mendalam mengenai konsep ketamadunan, wonders, teknologi, etika, dan pelbagai lagi dan diaplikasikan dan diadunkan di dalam permainan ini. Setakat yang saya alami, rakan-rakan sekeliling susah untuk memahami permainan ini. Hanya mereka yang tertentu saja yang dapat merasai keseronokan permainan ini. Ya betul, yang tertentu sahaja.

Saya sudah lebih 10 tahun bermain permainan Civilization bermula dari Civilization III lagi, di tahun 2003. Ketika itulah rakan mula memperkenalkan permainan ini kepada saya. Dan setakat ini, hanya dia seorang sajalah rakan saya yang tahu bermain permainan Civilization ini. Pada yang mereka yang punyai passion pada sejarah mungkin dapat mencuba menyelami permainan ini. Semakin permainan ini maju, semakin banyak elemen yang ditambah baik, tahun demi tahun.

Tajuk entri kali ini mengenai merdeka. Ya, ada juga konsep merdeka di dalam permainan ini. Bermula dari Civilization IV. Saya mungkin jenis tidak terlalu berani untuk bermain difficulty hard. Jadi saya sentiasa bermain di peringkat beginner. Di peringkat ini, pejam mata pun boleh menang. Haha. Jadi, sentiasalah saya menang, dengan kekuatan tentera selalu saja dapat menawan musuh yang memegang watak tamadun lain.

Selepas itu, pada satu peringkat, satu empayar tidak dapat menampung keluasan yang terlalu besar. Jadi akan ada pilihan samada hendak memerdekakan kawasan yang telah dijajah atau tak. Untuk pihak lawan, jika saya memerdekakan kawasan mereka, maka mereka perlulah menyerahkan kebanyakan kekayaan dan juga hasil buminya kepada saya. Jika tidak mahu menyerahkan semua itu, maka mereka perlulah menentang kekuatan tentera saya yang begitu besar (sebab difficulty beginner – settler difficulty) dan jika mereka berjaya, mereka mengekalkan kedaulatan mereka dan tidak perlu menyerahkan kekayaannya kepada saya.

Merdeka kita, bagaimana?

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –

Fi Ti Fi Ti 'Ain

Kecoh sekejap dengan isu CCRIS. Tapi, kecoh sekejap dan KJ jadi hero dengan mengkritik dasar kerajaan ini dan lantas Kabinet menarik balik semula cadangan tersebut. Saya bukan nak bicara isu PTPTN dengan CCRIS pun. Cuma teringat kisah lama.

Dengan dana PTPTN, pelajar mempunyai pelbagai sisi cerita. Ramai pelajar, maka banyaklah ceritanya. Secara umum, PTPTN lah membantu untuk membayar yuran pelajaran dan juga sara diri kami ketika belajar. :)

Tapi, kadang-kala ada yang terlepas pandang. PTPTN adalah untuk sara diri enjoy mereka. Ada rakan, anak orang kaya, bapanya sudah melarang untuk dia meminjam dengan PTPTN. Bapanya sebenarnya lebih dari mampu untuk menyara yuran dan sara diri anaknya.

Tapi anaknya tahu, dia takkan dapat wang sebanyaknya dengan sewenang-wenang dari bapanya itu. Terhad, amaun yang cukup-cukup mungkin, akan diberikan bapanya. Sudah tentu, untuk mendidik anak berjimat. Lantas, dia berdegil, tanpa pengetahuan bapanya meneruskan niat dengan meminjam dari PTPTN.

Kami, rakyat kebanyakan, rakyat marhaen, jauh di belakang rakan kami ini dari segi nasib keupayaan kewangan. Terkejut kami melihat bil perbelanjaan rakan kami di atas mejanya, sudah selesai semuanya dalam satu hujung minggu.

Ya, pinjaman yang kami terima untuk satu semester dan mencuba berjimat cermat setiap semester, dihabiskan hanya dua hari, sabtu dan ahad oleh rakan kami itu.

Dunia, banyak sisi cerita.

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –

Al-Fatihah Buat Ayah

 Ayah (28/7/1932 - 13/03/2004)

9 tahun sudah sebenarnya. Memang masa pantas berlalu.
You went so soon, but I have to move on.

Al-Fatihah Buat Ayah.
Terima Kasih.

Song Title: So Soon
Artist: Maher Zain

Every time I close my eyes I see you in front of me
I still can hear your voice calling out my name
And I remember all the stories you told me
I miss the time you were around (x2)

But I’m so grateful for every moment I spent with you
‘Cause I know life won’t last forever

Chorus:

You went so soon, so soon
You left so soon, so soon
I have to move on ’cause I know it’s been too long
I’ve got to stop the tears, keep my faith and be strong
I’ll try to take it all, even though it’s so hard
I see you in my dreams but when I wake up you are gone
Gone so soon

Night and day, I still feel you are close to me
And I remember you in every prayer that I make
Every single day may you be shaded by His mercy
But life is not the same, and it will never be the same

But I’m so thankful for every memory I shared with you
‘Cause I know this life is not forever

CHORUS

There were days when I had no strength to go on
I felt so weak and I just couldn’t help asking: “Why?”
But I got through all the pain when I truly accepted
That to God we all belong, and to Him we’ll return, ooh

CHORUS

Source: Here

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –

300?

Sumber Gambar: Sini

Dah 300 entri ke rupanya? Tapi post ni sebenarnya dah jadi entri yang ke-301. Tahniahlah. Tahniah for nothing. Kuikuikui.

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –

My Impression

Picture Source: Here

16-05-2012

My impression is, scary at first. From small to big, simple to complex, relax to hectic, sparse to crowded,  and from simple community to complex community, these are what I feel, the changes in the working environment.

Actually, I’ve just got a new job which still in the same field and the same discipline. But there are many differences from small time player to big player, not me but the company. It’s quite a new experience for sure. So many things should be comprehended and understood which two different places have two different policies and working environment.

While in the workplace before, an engineer would take part in almost everything except in discussing and handling the fee or payment of the job. About money, for sure the boss would take the responsibility to get their fees and payment.  When the real issue is how to settle the problems and issues, boss first surely will explain and give an idea how to solve it and then it’s up to engineer (young inexperience engineer) to solve all the issues according to client demand and boss’ instructions.

It’s quite good actually, even though it was hard. Starting from getting the concept (usually from the architect) and then continued with several discussions to confirm the detail (e.g. building structural and infrastructure design), continued with getting the approval from the authorities, and then deep further in detailed design. Usually that is the extent of engineer scope of work in consultancy but to tell you the truth, the essence of a construction job in consultancy world is the ‘drawings’.

‘Drawings’ is what we produce. Design calculation? Most of them (client, architect, quantity surveyor, land surveyor, resident engineer and usually Contractor), don’t give a damn about it. For sure, our boss quite particular about design and it is compulsory to give a proof of calculation of the design. But unfortunately, those design calculation only appreciated among small circle which contains design engineer and his boss. Most of the time the authority would require a calculation report to comply with the submission checklist, but more often it were kept in their keep. Just to dig it up back in case the building collapse, only for obvious example.

Most of the time, the question towards us is “Where is the drawings?’. So they would neglect the time we needed to calculate and then design it according to the specification.  Sorry, my writing quite gone astray right now. Drawings were drawn by draughtsman. They will get information from engineer and then start to draw to fulfill the engineer instructions. Experienced draughtsman will understand what engineer wants and most of the time, less time needed to make some correction and amendment. But when the engineer is young, the draughtsman also new so it quite tough to handle any given project and to deliver on time. Sometime even the engineer got to hands on with AutoCAD, because the draughtsman doesn’t really understand what engineer wants.  It is already a success to finish a job which satisfies the boss and client but most of the time, no.  But we always try to become better right? Hehe.

Well, new world, new environment and new adventure. It was quite relax in the company before but quite strict in this new environment. So many differences and not to mention the pay as well. Live must go on. We have to quickly adapt with new environment for us to propel in the new adventure. Welcome new experience, I’m gonna embrace you tightly and absorb all the things that I truly going for and deserved it. InsyaAllah, amin.

P/s: It is almost like a dream come true. As I step outside the building, Times Square is right in front of me. Then, the old Imbi Plaza is on my left and next to it is Sungei Wang. If I turn around I can see Low Yat Plaza. It is a dream comes true. Yeah. Dream comes true for me at least. Haha.

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –

One Bad Memory

Suddenly I just remembered something, something recalled as a quite bad memory. I used to be a top student in my batch, and in my course, Alhamdulillah. Then many students came from Sabah campus into our campus in Jengka, Pahang. Actually, they can choose which campus they want to go. Sarawak, Penang and Jengka. Those who choose Jengka mostly have pure intention in their studies so it is normal to have excellent student to join us.

Then I dropped two places and I was number three behind Adham and M. Nor if I’m not mistaken. Never mind, it was a healthy competition. My results gradually drop but still above 3.50 and still in third place behind both of them until the final semester. Alhamdulillah.

For the final semester, technically we are in the final year of our Diploma studies. Usually, there will be many events celebrating the final year students and award them with most active, top students and so many more awards.

Yeah, you got it. I thought I was shortlisted in the top three. But instead, the number four students, he is behind me, live in the same house with me, got the third spot for the award. So that’s why I was not invited to the ceremony. First, second and third were awarded in that ceremony. I never thought any weird thing because perhaps that my friend in the 4^th place was active in Civil Engineering Student Society (CESS) as he hold some position in the group, so he deserved the award.  

If I don’t know this, it even much better. Unfortunately, I heard this in the very last day of the semester. The award is purely based on Academic achievement. It is clearly that Adham and M. Nor does not hold any position in any group or club in the campus. But their CGPA was much superior compared with me. So I don’t suspect any conspiracy.

So the truth came out and a friend of mine which close with the hierarchy (I’m outside the hierarchy all along in my studies in Jengka, perhaps to avoid bias issue) told me that KP has dropped out my name due to some issue that I deserved to be ousted. That’s why that guy in fourth place came to take my place. I think he also knew that. At the moment I heard that, there’s a feeling deep in my heart. It was so sad. But I don’t know why, that guy who took my place shows me the plate and certificate to show that he got that award. So be it, he got the plate and certificate plus RM500 if I’m not mistaken. It was his rizq and totally not mine.

From totally unknown of the issue and then realized that my name was dropped down the list was such a pain. Sometime, truth is hard to swallow.

After all, Alhamdulillah for everything.

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –

In Between - Linkin Park

Artist: Linkin ParkSong Title: In BetweenAlbum: Minutes To Midnight

Let me apologize to begin withLet me apologize for what I'm about to sayBut trying to be genuine was harder than it seemedAnd somehow I got caught up in between

Let me apologize to begin withLet me apologize for what I'm about to sayBut trying to be someone else was harder than it seemedAnd somehow I got caught up in between

Between my pride and my promiseBetween my lies and how the truth gets in the wayThe things I want to say to you get lost before they comeThe only thing that's worse than one is none

Let me apologize to begin withLet me apologize for what I'm about to sayBut trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemedAnd somehow I got caught up in between

Between my pride and my promiseBetween my lies and how the truth gets in the wayThe things I want to say to you get lost before they comeThe only thing that's worse than one is noneThe only thing that's worse than one is none

And I cannot explain to youIn anything I say or do or planFear is not afraid of youGuilt's a language you can understand

I cannot explain to youIn anything I say or doI hope the actions speak the words they can

For my pride and my promiseFor my lies and how the truth gets in the wayThe things I want to say to you get lost before they comeThe only thing that's worse than one is

Pride and my promiseBetween my lies and how the truth gets in the wayThe things I want to say to you get lost before they comeThe only thing that's worse than one is noneThe only thing that's worse than one is noneThe only thing that's worse than one is none
Source: Metrolyrics

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –

'Nobody Cares'

Salam dan juga hai semua. Lama dah tak menulis. Ye betul. Maaflah. Skill menulis dah berkarat. Dan tambahan pula, walaupun saya dah lama tak menulis, namun, 'Nobody Cares' bak kata SpongeBob kat atas tu. Hehe.

Ade juga nak post beberapa entri yang dah lama ditulis. Jadinya, mungkin beberapa artikel akan kelihatan terlalu outdated. Sorry about that.

That's all for now. Salam and thank you everyone.

:-)

"DAVID BECKHAM IS BRITAIN'S FINEST STRIKER OF A FOOTBALL NOT BECAUSE OF GOD-GIVEN TALENT BUT BECAUSE HE PRACTISES WITH A RELENTLESS APPLICATION THAT THE VAST MAJORITY OF LESS GIFTED WOULDN'T CONTEMPLATE" – Sir Alex Ferguson –