Exhausted

Defeated at full scale. Defeated unnumbered (kalah tak bernombor). That is only I can comprise after all. I did not sleep completely for a while. Doing this and doing that but it cannot be compared with the other guys. Strategy. That is important. After all, Lord has chosen others to fill the top three. Not us. Disappointed? Yes, of course. If that person is not disappointed after being defeated, that’s means he or she does not really contributing for that effort.

I’m really exhausted right now. But many things still await us in the near future. Added with this failure makes this exhaustion doubled. Still a friend of mine smiled in pain, gave his hand to me and I grab that offer. We shake our hand and thanks for each other efforts and contribution. All of us actually smiled in pain. Nothing in return for us.

Alhamdulillah now. A part of everything has finished. Cannot mumbling and commenting on others. We have to face forward. Think forward. And move forward. Still I’m searching what are the ‘hikmah’ behind this defeat. I got to sleep now. Hoping I can forget about this real quick. But I really do proud of the class. They offered the whole class to stand on the stage. We are brothers and sisters. Even we are defeated, we still being friends and we are siblings. That is the tight bond between us. Proud of you, my classmates.

Back to the case, even we think we should win after we have an extra amazing effort (i.e. model), something awkward might happen. Someone might interested in using our idea and borrow some of our materials. Not one, but two groups. Yes, they have won their competition in each respective category. And we are frustrated enough to see them through. Well, something wrong from our part. The fundamental (i.e. presentation slides and contents) should be taken as the priority. Not the extra effort provided the core works doens't finished yet. Let check it out first. After all, it just a competition. A hamper for those who win. Not a gold medal or money. Just only our pride being scarred heavy enough to see them again. Yet, we just a normal person. Life must go on.

p/s: I’m always losing in recent years. What a shame. Huh…

"IF OUR COUNTRY WORTH DYING FOR IN TIME OF WAR LET US RESOLVE THAT IT IS TRULY WORTH LIVING FOR IN TIME OF PEACE" – Hamilton Fish –